Middle Aged and Single

I gotta tell ya…..all that dreaming about being smarter now than I was 30 years ago and how fun it would be to be single again???  Toss ’em out the window with the baby and the bath water….IT JUST AIN’T SO.  As a matter of fact, on my worst day of being married, it was better than being without someone to fight with, cry with, laugh with, sleep with and love.  Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not whinin’ but I’m not single by choice either.  The love of my life heard his name called by a voice so sweet he just couldn’t resist the call “home” but he left me in my prime, so to speak, well…a little in my prime.  BUT, the fact of the matter is, I thought it might be a fun experience (positive thinking???)

Now, I have to admit that this is not my idea of a good time.  I’m managing and life could be much, much worse but I get lonely.  And to top it off, I got a wild hair, sold my house in Kansas, uprooted and moved to Lubbock, Texas!!!  What in the world was I thinking???  “And if you are wonderin’ why I would do such a thing….well, that’s natural because so do I!!  What makes me think a blast from my past could be the answer to my future????  Now, visualize me banging my head against the wall. BANG, BANG, BANG!!!!

So, here I sit, in a nice home office I’ve set up and I do like working from home but it has its drawbacks.  For instance, my car might go as long as 4 to 5 days without being moved.  I don’t have Pepsi and candy at my fingertips.  I have no idea what is going on in my friends worlds. This little apartment is my world.  And what’s worse, I have a room-mate along with my dog and 3 cats!!!  52 with a room-mate.  GEE WHIZ!!

Well, I decided I might try this online speed dating thing that all the single folks are doing.  You get three minutes to talk on-line and then the date is up.  That’s about as fulfilling as a Fleets enema!  So, I decided to try match.com.  Now there you have a selection…just like going through the produce aisle at the grocery store and squeezing each tomato, thumpin’ a melon or two, and tip- toeing past the onion patch.  Oh yeah, I’m pickin’ fruit off the vine left and right.  So I have a “wink” and I’m excited because someone looked at ME!!!  I look at his profile, AND HE IS GORGEOUS, EDUCATED, RAISED IN EUROPE AND A JEWELRY DESIGNER FOR WHOLESALERS.  I’ve hit pay dirt folks!!!  He contacts me immediately and the world bows at my feet because I am beautiful, charming, smart, everything that I already knew I was 🙂 but it sounded better coming from such a perfect man.  A few days of chit chat back and forth and the guy decides he is in love with me and asking me where I want to go on our honeymoon.  Needless to say, IT WAS SURE FINE WHILE IT LASTED but one very good lesson my dear late husband left with me…..If it sounds too good to be true, it probably is.

Match.com is off the radar along with speed dating.  These past 2 years I’ve learned so much about who I am and, believe me, it has been right down frightening at times.  I miss the people I work with who have become like family to me.  I miss my children and I just miss being touched by a human, in general.

But you know what?  Life is still good and the beauty of this whole ordeal is that I am still able to learn, sometimes….well, most of the time, the hard way.  But that’s nothing new for me.  And life’s trials are helping me to understand other folks around me and what they might be experiencing.

So I leave you with this, our dreams are just that….dreams.  If we lived in a perfect world we wouldn’t have anything to dream about.  So let your imagination fly, your emotions soar and have those wonderful dreams, just make sure you have your anchor buried in solid ground.

Til we meet again!


6 Responses to “Middle Aged and Single”

  1. Brenda Druecker Says:

    I love it!! I am sorry to hear that things are not working out in Texas like you may have hoped. But I love it that you are going along on the adventure and learning along the way. I am learning that I have to keep learning and listening and dang it, the listening is HARD!!! Keep your head and thoughts up and know that we will always be here!!

  2. Jennifer Whitebread Says:

    I love hearing from you Mary. But it does make me miss you and the SCKSEC gang. I know all about lifes ups and downs, twists and turns. It never fails, when you think you have it all figured out life decides to change things up on you. Hang in there and remember you are never alone. Your friends are only an email or phone call away.

  3. Mary Andresen Says:

    You are wonderful. Don’t you let what you THINK others are wanting or thinking you should do dictate your life. You took a chance most of us only dream of. You are a brave, smart, beautiful, loyal, woman and friend and yes I think that was to good to be true.

    I love and miss you. Sometimes to the point of heartache, but I take such comfort in the fact that this is where God wants you to be. To love and learn the lessons He has planned for your life through Him.

    Keep blogging,praying & know you are loved by so many!


  4. Terri Says:

    If anyone can figure out how to turn lemons into lemonade, it’s you. I wish you were here so I could give you a hug. Hang in there. Your blog is a great way to stay in touch!!

  5. Bonnie Says:

    Mary, Mary what can I say. I miss you so much, but you still make me laugh from 500 miles away. Hang in there….your light is still shining and Mary it always will. You are a great individual with great things to offer.

    • mjparris Says:

      I love you too sister!

      Mary Parris ESSDACK Payroll/Human Resources 1500 E. 11th Avenue, Suite 200 Hutchinson, KS 67501 phone: (620) 727-3887 fax: (806) 368-0634

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